I bet you have just looked at the title and thought, “What is he talking about?” but please allow me to explain.
(Post Updated 22/04/19)
What I am about to tell you is sad but I hope you understand the reason I am telling you this.
A year ago today, around this time actually, I tried to kill myself. Why? Because I hated myself, I hated my life and I thought that everyone else’s lives would have been happier and brighter without me in it. I felt this way after about 8 years of bullying, failed self-harming attempts and depression which spiraled out of control and ultimately led to my attempted suicide.
Why am I telling you this? Some people would see this as a sad day; remembering a day when I was so sad that I thought the only way out of it was suicide. But the reason I am telling you this is because it has been a whole year, a whole year that I wouldn’t have had if I jumped out of my window and died. I wouldn’t have seen my 16th Birthday, I wouldn’t have seen my Prom and most of all I wouldn’t have seen my family or friends ever again. But God saved me before I could make this mistake…
So for this year that I have had; this moment that I have right now – I am grateful! God saved me and God is with me always and I love him for that and so much more. I am beyond grateful for all that he has done and all the people he has put in my life to keep me encouraged e.g. my parents, my family, my church family, and my friends.
The reason I wrote this post is just to express how happy I am to be alive and how grateful I am to be here.
And last but not least, I need to tell you this: I Love You, I Appreciate You and I Am Blessed To Know You!
Continue to be Beautiful, Blessed and Victorious!